Failing...

 ...Did you hear that? That was the sound of my heart shattering. Failed another timed technical test. 

Woke up to yet another rejection email. These days, I seem to wake up to a lot of these "love letters", as I like to call them.

 That's it. I'm done. This "developering" thing is not for me. 

Nobody prepares you for the rejections you will get, trying to get your foot in as a new techie. All t's crossed, i's dotted. I know that I know this thing. Okay, I know enough, and I am willing to learn and be better. So why do they not want to work with me?😔😔😔😔 Am I that bad a developer? 😭😭😭😭 

No, you are not a bad developer. You are probably not what they need right now, and that is okay. It is okay to be sad and feel downcast, but don't stay down for too long. Like me, throw tantrums, be sad, cry, sleep. But when you wake up, clean your teary eyes, open your laptop and go again.

Do not stop applying for jobs. For every rejection, apply for some more, build more projects, solve more Leetcode problems, improve on your soft skills, stay positive. One day, that yes that will cancel all the no's will come, and you will be thankful you continued. 

Meanwhile, when you get in, never stop building yourself. There are more difficult road blocks ahead. Until then, let me get back to applying for that role.

 Adios.